{"id":433,"date":"2026-09-06T11:21:47","date_gmt":"2026-09-06T08:21:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.knn.net.tr\/?p=433"},"modified":"2026-09-06T11:21:48","modified_gmt":"2026-09-06T08:21:48","slug":"her-sey-her-gun-biraz-daha-kotuye-gidiyor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.knn.net.tr\/index.php\/2026\/09\/06\/her-sey-her-gun-biraz-daha-kotuye-gidiyor\/","title":{"rendered":"Her \u015fey her g\u00fcn biraz daha k\u00f6t\u00fcye gidiyor."},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bunu ilk fark etti\u011fimde hava karanl\u0131kt\u0131. Pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde oturmu\u015f, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki sessizli\u011fi dinliyordum. Sokakta kimse yoktu. Ama garip olan, sessizli\u011fin i\u00e7inde bile bir kavga varm\u0131\u015f gibi gelmesiydi bana.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Telefon masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde duruyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ekran kapal\u0131yd\u0131 ama yine de ona bak\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sanki birazdan gelecek bir mesaj, b\u00fct\u00fcn geceyi de\u011fi\u015ftirecekmi\u015f gibi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Gelmedi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sen de gelmedin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Son zamanlarda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey zaman\u0131nda gelmiyordu zaten. Ne g\u00fczel bir haber, ne i\u00e7ten bir g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme, ne de insan\u0131n i\u00e7ini rahatlatan bir c\u00fcmle&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her \u015fey gecikiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve geciken her \u015fey, biraz daha eksilerek geliyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duydum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130\u00e7eri girdin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemedin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben de s\u00f6ylemedim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eskiden suskunlu\u011fumuzun i\u00e7inde bile birbirimizi anlard\u0131k. \u015eimdi ise ayn\u0131 odada iki yabanc\u0131 gibi oturuyorduk. Aram\u0131zda birka\u00e7 metre vard\u0131 ama sanki y\u0131llar kadar uzakt\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sonra sen k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u015fey s\u00f6yledin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00d6nemsiz bir \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki ba\u015fka bir g\u00fcn olsa \u00fczerinde durmayaca\u011f\u0131m, hatta g\u00fcl\u00fcp ge\u00e7ece\u011fim bir \u015fey.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama o g\u00fcn sinirlendim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sesimi y\u00fckselttim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sen de inat ettin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben daha \u00e7ok sinirlendim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sen daha \u00e7ok sustun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve o an anlad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Biz art\u0131k b\u00fcy\u00fck meselelerden kavga etmiyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Birikmi\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck \u015feylerden kavga ediyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">D\u0131\u015far\u0131daki hayat\u0131n \u00fczerimize b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 birbirimizin omuzlar\u0131na y\u00fckl\u00fcyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130\u015fler k\u00f6t\u00fc gidiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsanlar de\u011fi\u015fiyordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">G\u00fcven azal\u0131yor, tahamm\u00fcl t\u00fckeniyor, herkes biraz daha kendi i\u00e7ine kapan\u0131yordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hayat zaten yeterince yorucuydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama biz birbirimizi dinlendirmek yerine birbirimize de y\u00fck olmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bir s\u00fcre y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sonra i\u00e7imden ge\u00e7en c\u00fcmleyi ilk defa y\u00fcksek sesle s\u00f6yledim:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cDikkat ediyor musun? Her \u015fey her g\u00fcn biraz daha k\u00f6t\u00fcye gidiyor. Ben daha \u00e7abuk sinirleniyorum, sen daha \u00e7ok inat ediyorsun. Oysa bunlar\u0131n hi\u00e7bir gere\u011fi yok.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sustun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201cGere\u011fi yok,\u201d dedim tekrar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u201c\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc zaten hayat\u0131n her alan\u0131nda \u00e7ok sorun var.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bu kez cevap vermedin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 e\u011fdin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben de sustum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bazen insan\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndakine s\u00f6yleyecek s\u00f6z\u00fc kalmaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kendisine s\u00f6yleyecek s\u00f6z\u00fc kal\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">O gece ilk defa kavgan\u0131n asl\u0131nda seninle olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sen de benimle kavga etmiyordun belki.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130kimiz de hayat\u0131n \u00fczerimize b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feylerle sava\u015f\u0131yorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama yanl\u0131\u015f ki\u015fiye ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Yanl\u0131\u015f ki\u015fiden hesap soruyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Yanl\u0131\u015f ki\u015fiyi su\u00e7luyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve insan\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck yan\u0131lg\u0131s\u0131 da buydu zaten:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">D\u0131\u015far\u0131da par\u00e7alan\u0131rken, i\u00e7eride birbirini par\u00e7alamak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sabaha kar\u015f\u0131 uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131mda sen h\u00e2l\u00e2 uyuyordun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Uzun zamand\u0131r ilk defa seni k\u0131zg\u0131n oldu\u011fum biri olarak de\u011fil, yorulmu\u015f biri olarak g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki sen de beni \u00f6yle g\u00f6rmeliydin.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">K\u0131zg\u0131n de\u011fil&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Yorgun.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nat\u00e7\u0131 de\u011fil&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">K\u0131rg\u0131n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sessiz de\u011fil&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">S\u00f6yleyeceklerini i\u00e7inde b\u00fcy\u00fctm\u00fc\u015f biri.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Elimi uzat\u0131p sana dokunmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sadece yan\u0131nda biraz daha oturdum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bazen bir \u015feyi d\u00fczeltmek i\u00e7in b\u00fcy\u00fck c\u00fcmlelere gerek yoktur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bazen insan\u0131n yapmas\u0131 gereken tek \u015fey, gitmemektir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatmadan i\u00e7eride kalabilmektir mesele.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kap\u0131y\u0131 kapatt\u0131ktan sonra i\u00e7eride durman\u0131n hi\u00e7bir anlam\u0131 kalmaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve ben o gece anlad\u0131m:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hayat zaten bizi her g\u00fcn biraz daha eksiltecek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsanlar zaten biraz daha k\u0131racak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">D\u00fcnya zaten yeterince sert.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">O halde birbirimizin yaras\u0131na neden bir yara daha ekleyelim?<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sabah oldu\u011funda hi\u00e7bir \u015fey de\u011fi\u015fmemi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sorunlar h\u00e2l\u00e2 oradayd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hayat h\u00e2l\u00e2 zordu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama biz ilk defa birbirimize kar\u015f\u0131 de\u011fil, ayn\u0131 tarafta duruyorduk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki b\u00fct\u00fcn mesele buydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her \u015feyi d\u00fczeltmek de\u011fil&#8230;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her \u015fey k\u00f6t\u00fcye giderken, birbirimizi daha da k\u00f6t\u00fc h\u00e2le getirmemek.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bunu ilk fark etti\u011fimde hava karanl\u0131kt\u0131. Pencerenin \u00f6n\u00fcnde oturmu\u015f, d\u0131\u015far\u0131daki sessizli\u011fi dinliyordum. Sokakta kimse yoktu. Ama garip olan, sessizli\u011fin i\u00e7inde bile bir kavga varm\u0131\u015f gibi gelmesiydi bana. Telefon masan\u0131n \u00fczerinde duruyordu. Ekran kapal\u0131yd\u0131 ama yine de ona bak\u0131yordum. Sanki birazdan gelecek bir mesaj, b\u00fct\u00fcn geceyi de\u011fi\u015ftirecekmi\u015f gibi. Gelmedi. Sen de gelmedin. 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