{"id":384,"date":"2026-08-30T21:34:42","date_gmt":"2026-08-30T18:34:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.knn.net.tr\/?p=384"},"modified":"2026-08-30T21:34:42","modified_gmt":"2026-08-30T18:34:42","slug":"cogalarak-yalnizlastim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.knn.net.tr\/index.php\/2026\/08\/30\/cogalarak-yalnizlastim\/","title":{"rendered":"\u00c7o\u011falarak Yaln\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131m"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsanlar\u0131n azl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan de\u011fil, \u00e7o\u011falmas\u0131ndan yoruldum. Etraf\u0131mda insanlar artt\u0131k\u00e7a, konu\u015fmalar \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a, y\u00fczler birbirine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a kendi i\u00e7imde daha b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sessizli\u011fin olu\u015ftu\u011funu fark ettim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eskiden yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131, insan\u0131n \u00e7evresinde kimsenin olmamas\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131m. Sonra anlad\u0131m ki yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, bazen bir odan\u0131n sessizli\u011finde de\u011fil; kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n tam ortas\u0131nda ba\u015fl\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan, kendisini anlayanlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131yor; kendisini anlamayanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ise eksiliyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hayat boyunca bir\u00e7ok insan tan\u0131yoruz. Kimi hayat\u0131m\u0131za k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcreli\u011fine giriyor, kimi y\u0131llarca yan\u0131m\u0131zda kal\u0131yor. Baz\u0131lar\u0131yla ayn\u0131 yolu y\u00fcr\u00fcyor, baz\u0131lar\u0131yla ayn\u0131 masaya oturuyor, baz\u0131lar\u0131yla ayn\u0131 \u015feylere g\u00fcl\u00fcyor, ayn\u0131 \u015feylere \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyoruz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n i\u00e7inde insan\u0131n kendisine ait bir taraf\u0131 var.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kimsenin g\u00f6remedi\u011fi, kimsenin tam olarak bilemedi\u011fi bir taraf\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130\u015fte ben en \u00e7ok orada yaln\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7evremde insanlar \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a kendimi anlatacak insan say\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n azald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc anlatmak ba\u015fka, anla\u015f\u0131lmak ba\u015fka bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsan bazen saatlerce konu\u015fur ama tek bir c\u00fcmlesi bile kar\u015f\u0131 tarafa ula\u015fmaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bazen de hi\u00e7bir \u015fey s\u00f6ylemez ve biri, sessizli\u011finin i\u00e7indeki b\u00fct\u00fcn c\u00fcmleleri duyar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben zamanla konu\u015fmaktan \u00e7ok susmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frendim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc s\u00f6ylememeyi, her g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc anlatmamay\u0131, her k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bunu belli etmemeyi \u00f6\u011frendim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e \u015funu anl\u0131yor:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her do\u011fru, her yerde s\u00f6ylenmiyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her duygu, herkesle payla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her insan, insan\u0131n i\u00e7indeki kap\u0131y\u0131 a\u00e7abilecek anahtara sahip olmuyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki de bu y\u00fczden \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131m, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerimin i\u00e7inde \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131m, ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131m. Her kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fma bana ba\u015fka bir \u015fey \u00f6\u011fretti. Her ayr\u0131l\u0131k i\u00e7imde ba\u015fka bir yer b\u0131rakt\u0131. Her hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131, insanlara bak\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131 biraz daha de\u011fi\u015ftirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a yaln\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan \u00f6\u011frendik\u00e7e herkese ayn\u0131 g\u00f6zle bakam\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eskiden insanlar\u0131n s\u00f6ylediklerine inan\u0131rd\u0131m. \u015eimdi s\u00f6yledikleriyle yapt\u0131klar\u0131 aras\u0131ndaki mesafeye bak\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eskiden kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n g\u00fcven verdi\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u015eimdi kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde kaybolman\u0131n ne kadar kolay oldu\u011funu biliyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Eskiden \u00e7ok insan tan\u0131man\u0131n insan\u0131 zenginle\u015ftirdi\u011fini san\u0131rd\u0131m. \u015eimdi insan\u0131 zenginle\u015ftirenin tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 insan say\u0131s\u0131 de\u011fil, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlar\u0131n onda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 anlam oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki de yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n as\u0131l sebebi budur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Art\u0131k her kalabal\u0131k bana yak\u0131n gelmiyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her sohbet bana ait de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her dostluk dostluk de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Her g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme samimiyet ta\u015f\u0131m\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve her \u201cyan\u0131nday\u0131m\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc, insan\u0131n ger\u00e7ekten yan\u0131nda olmak anlam\u0131na gelmiyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsan bunlar\u0131 fark ettik\u00e7e \u00e7evresindeki insan say\u0131s\u0131 de\u011fi\u015fmese bile kendi d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndaki insanlar\u0131n say\u0131s\u0131 azal\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bir zamanlar onlarca insan\u0131n bulundu\u011fu yerde birka\u00e7 ki\u015fi kal\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Sonra birka\u00e7 ki\u015finin bulundu\u011fu yerde insan kendisiyle ba\u015f ba\u015fa kal\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130\u015fte o zaman insan anl\u0131yor ki yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, asl\u0131nda ba\u015fkalar\u0131n\u0131n gitmesiyle de\u011fil; insan\u0131n kendisine yabanc\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131yla ba\u015fl\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben kendime yabanc\u0131la\u015fmamak i\u00e7in baz\u0131 kalabal\u0131klardan uzakla\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Baz\u0131 konu\u015fmalar\u0131 yar\u0131m b\u0131rakt\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Baz\u0131 kap\u0131lar\u0131 \u00e7almad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Baz\u0131 insanlara s\u00f6yleyecek s\u00f6z\u00fcm oldu\u011fu halde sustum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc art\u0131k her kap\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131 gerekti\u011fine inanm\u0131yorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Baz\u0131 kap\u0131lar kapal\u0131 kalmal\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Baz\u0131 yollar y\u00fcr\u00fcnmemeli.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Baz\u0131 insanlar hayat\u0131m\u0131zda sadece bir ders olarak kalmal\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bunun ad\u0131 k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k m\u0131, uzakla\u015fmak m\u0131, olgunla\u015fmak m\u0131 bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki hepsinden biraz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama bildi\u011fim bir \u015fey var:<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsan bazen kaybettikleriyle de\u011fil, art\u0131k ihtiya\u00e7 duymad\u0131klar\u0131yla b\u00fcy\u00fcyor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben de b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n i\u00e7inden ge\u00e7ip kendi sessizli\u011fime geldim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve \u015fimdi yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 eskisi kadar korkutucu bulmuyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc yaln\u0131z olmakla sahipsiz olmak ayn\u0131 \u015fey de\u011fil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsan kendi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerinin yan\u0131nda durabiliyorsa, kendi sessizli\u011finden ka\u00e7m\u0131yorsa, kendisiyle konu\u015fabiliyorsa asl\u0131nda hi\u00e7bir zaman tamamen yaln\u0131z de\u011fildir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Belki de hayat\u0131n en b\u00fcy\u00fck kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131 insan\u0131n kendi i\u00e7indedir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Binlerce d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce, y\u00fczlerce soru, cevaps\u0131z kalan onlarca c\u00fcmle\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Hepsi insan\u0131n i\u00e7inde ya\u015far.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben bug\u00fcn h\u00e2l\u00e2 insanlarla birlikteyim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">H\u00e2l\u00e2 konu\u015fuyorum, g\u00fcl\u00fcyorum, dinliyorum, hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inde y\u00fcr\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama art\u0131k biliyorum ki insanlarla birlikte olmak, onlara ait olmak de\u011fildir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve insan\u0131n herkese yeti\u015fmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131, sonunda kendisinden uzakla\u015fmas\u0131na neden olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bu y\u00fczden art\u0131k yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bir eksiklik olarak g\u00f6rm\u00fcyorum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Bazen yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, insan\u0131n kendisini yeniden bulabilmesi i\u00e7in hayat\u0131n ona verdi\u011fi en b\u00fcy\u00fck f\u0131rsatt\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc baz\u0131 insanlar kalabal\u0131kta kendisini kaybeder.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Baz\u0131lar\u0131 ise yaln\u0131z kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kendisini bulur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ben ise ikisini de ya\u015fad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n i\u00e7inde kendimi arad\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">\u0130nsanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda kendimi \u00e7o\u011faltt\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ve sonunda, b\u00fct\u00fcn o \u00e7o\u011falman\u0131n i\u00e7inde kendime ait bir sessizlik buldum.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><strong>\u00c7o\u011falarak yaln\u0131zla\u015ft\u0131m.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Ama belki de ilk defa, bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7inde kendime ger\u00e7ekten yakla\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u0130nsanlar\u0131n azl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan de\u011fil, \u00e7o\u011falmas\u0131ndan yoruldum. Etraf\u0131mda insanlar artt\u0131k\u00e7a, konu\u015fmalar \u00e7o\u011fald\u0131k\u00e7a, y\u00fczler birbirine kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a kendi i\u00e7imde daha b\u00fcy\u00fck bir sessizli\u011fin olu\u015ftu\u011funu fark ettim. Eskiden yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131, insan\u0131n \u00e7evresinde kimsenin olmamas\u0131 san\u0131rd\u0131m. Sonra anlad\u0131m ki yaln\u0131zl\u0131k, bazen bir odan\u0131n sessizli\u011finde de\u011fil; kalabal\u0131klar\u0131n tam ortas\u0131nda ba\u015fl\u0131yor. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan, kendisini anlayanlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131yor; kendisini anlamayanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ise eksiliyor. 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